Skip to main content
Come Fan with UsSaturday, June 20, 2026

Football Father

Violence, rage, dementia, and the love between father and son

Mark Pellington knew violence long before he directed Pearl Jam’s video for the song “Jeremy,” a crazed, strobe-lit collage of adolescent despair, for his father Bill, a legendary linebacker for the Baltimore Colts in the 1950s and 60s, was as violent a player as the game has ever seen.

The video, filmed in 1992, became an MTV staple for the rest of the decade until the Columbine shootings made its public airing taboo.

Mark, though his career as a filmmaker took off, was dragged down for years by the errant critique of the violence in “Jeremy.” In the final scene of the video, the long-bullied Jeremy takes revenge by shooting himself in front of his schoolhouse torturers. Problem was, censors ditched that scene, and unknowingly multiplied its ill effect. Rather than the edited-out suicide, we saw the blood-stained classmates, and Jeremy’s self-destructive revenge was misconstrued as murderous. Then Columbine, the real event the censors no doubt feared, provoked yet another overheated discussion about that legendary fine line between art and life, for “Jeremy” was resurrected as a culprit.

Mark was never bullied in school himself. He was and is a bear of a fellow, resembling his father in both countenance and girth. To those who knew his father, it is clear that they share the same gentleness, too.

But, at the time of the making of the video, a vicious disease not then so regularly named as Alzheimer’s was beating the hell out of Mark as he watched his father succumb almost overnight to it.

How Mark channeled the violence of his father’s decline and death to spark the creative fury of “Jeremy” didn’t even dawn on him until recently. But it dawned hard, for the sudden, shocking death of his wife helped Mark realize that, in many ways, his whole artistic career has been a conversation with his father – the intelligent, mauling, dignified, suffering and battle-scarred old Colt.

I began this story with Jimmy Shelton, our crack video editor, as an effort to depict the consequences of football’s head trauma epidemic on the children of NFL players. But stories take you where they will, and it became simply a story about how sports, like art, can sanctify the complicated love between a father and a son.



More in Longform

Longform
The Gyms of Holmes CountyThe Gyms of Holmes County
Longform

For the West Holmes Knights and the Hiland Hawks, basketball is a way of life.

By Matt Tullis
Longform
Higher and HigherHigher and Higher
Longform

Former Panther Shawn King’s career went up in smoke. Then he found another way to get high…

By Michael Graff
Longform
Buffalo and Wide Right, 25 years laterBuffalo and Wide Right, 25 years later
Longform

What the rest of America might never understand about Buffalo and its Bills

By Brin-Jonathan Butler
Longform
The Great Wight HopeThe Great Wight Hope
Longform

How Paul “Big Show” Wight kind of, sort of, almost — OK not really — became heavyweight boxing champion of the world

By David Bixenspan
Longform
Unmasking Josh Norman, the NFL’s Dark KnightUnmasking Josh Norman, the NFL’s Dark Knight
Longform

Like the Panthers, Josh Norman is under-appreciated. But people are starting to take notice.

By Latria Graham
Longform
Shadow BoxerShadow Boxer
Longform

Alex Ramos was once a contender in boxing’s formidable middleweight division. But his toughest fight was for his own name.

By William D'Urso