When Cheryl Miller was still young enough that she could only dream about being one of the greatest basketball players in the world, her mother, Carrie Miller, rarely got to see her play. Cheryl's mother would take her younger brother, Reggie Miller, to his game, and Cheryl's father, Saul Miller, would take Cheryl to hers. "And that was fun in the beginning," Cheryl said, "but my mom was always missing out on watching me play." That didn't mean her mother missed out on hearing what happened in Cheryl's games, though. After each game Carrie missed she'd wait until Cheryl took a shower and got dressed for bed. "She'd sit there by my bedside and have me just go over the game, just tell her about it. I think I never got to the fourth quarter. I never got to the fourth because I'd fall asleep." But Cheryl could always hear her mother's soft farewell just before completely dozing off. "Goodnight, Pearl," she'd say. "Truly my heart and soul, my mom was."
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To find Cheryl Miller now, you have to know where to look. Langston University is about 10 miles farther off the interstate than most people are willing to go. Those that do usually aren't looking for the women's basketball game. They're not looking for the football game, either. Most are just looking for the Marching Pride's halftime show. This is not a school with a budding athletic tradition or a football team that demands attention, and sometimes it seems like most people attend the games for the award-winning marching show band. Langston is a safety school for some, a last resort for many, a place many want to forget as soon as they leave it.
Driving toward that small campus in the midst of the plains of central Oklahoma — a half-hour from anywhere you want to be — you can feel like you've missed it. Surrounded by nothing but pasture land, you wonder if you've taken a wrong turn. It seems as if the only historically black college in Oklahoma is trying to hide from you. You can feel like you're never going to find it. And all of a sudden, like a desert oasis, there it is. Brightly lit. Smack in the middle of nothing. Plain as day. A wave of relief washes over you as you smile, knowing it was there all the time.
Langston University campus. (Via Google)
It seems as if the only historically black college in Oklahoma is trying to hide from you.
But here, now, is where you'll find Cheryl Miller. This is where you'll find the woman who for nearly two decades was ubiquitous as a sports broadcaster, best known for her work as a sideline reporter covering the NBA on TNT and is widely considered one of the world's greatest amateur athletes, a pioneer — the first women's basketball player who demanded a nation's attention. And this is where you'll find a woman now who is acting on the lessons she learned from her mother, lessons earned through the loss of life to change her own — and, she hopes, the lives of others.
Through the doors at the C.F. Gayle Gymnasium, Holly, Athletic Director Mike Garrett's secretary, takes you up the stairs, past the women's basketball assistants' office and leaves you in Miller's doorway. There are no awards from her past here. No trophies from a Hall of Fame career as a player or trinkets from time with Turner Sports. There's not even a single piece of USC paraphernalia — there's only Miller.
She rises from behind a great mahogany desk from a cushy office chair, still tall and athletic, to shake hands and greet you. There's a couch in front of the desk and a bookshelf in the corner but the white-walled office is mostly bare. Miller's MacBook is the only thing in the room that speaks of the 21st century. Here, in this hinterland, Garrett, the former Heisman Trophy winner and USC AD, hopes Miller will help him create an NAIA, Division I juggernaut.
With no long-sleeve shirt or jacket to conceal them, the tattoos on her wrists are prominent proof that she's comfortable in her skin. That's a lesson from Carrie: Be who you are, and be that person fully, wholly, without airs and full of grace. Miller wears a Team Australia T-shirt, jean capris and black flip-flops because her washer is on the fritz. She's staying in an apartment on campus and plans to remain there for as long as she's the coach at Langston, though she says everyone she spoke to tried to talk her out of the idea of living in such a remote place, only a forceful chest pass away from her players. "I'm a homebody," she says. "If there is a knock right now, and I've got to take this up with the [Langston] president, is we have cable but it's not HD."
Coaching isn't the profession many of her players and their peers know her for. It's her talent on camera that sticks with them. At 50 years old, she is as gregarious as she's ever been, one of the many traits she developed as a broadcaster that she's taken with her to this place, a place where she feels she can start anew.
It's a pity so few of them ever saw her really play. They never saw her lead the U.S. to gold at the 1984 Olympics in Los Angeles or watched her dominate the college game at USC from 1983-86. Most of them are too young to have watched her give her National Basketball Hall of Fame induction speech in 1995. Even today, it's not hard to imagine just what kind of force she must have been. Her office isn't small. At 6'2, she just makes it look that way.
But, here, now, in her scant office that she's only just moved into a day after classes began, she's known simply as "Coach" with a capital 'C.' Right after she took the job in late April she started building trust with her players, the kind of trust that allows any of them to walk into her office without knocking.
"Coach, let me tell you," a young lady says after appearing in the doorway, "I almost had an episode yesterday, but I took a walk."
Miller turns her attention to the young woman carrying books and eager to share. "Did you now?" Miller said. "I'm proud of you."
"I'm coming a long way."
"I am proud of you."
"I'm trying to be a better person."
At this point, Miller is so happy she can't take it anymore. She jumps out of her chair and grabs the young woman, senior basketball star Lynette Holmes, in a bear hug. "I'm so proud of you! That's what I'm talking about!" That hug, that happiness, is one of the chief reasons she's in Langston, and this is a seminal moment in the growing relationship between player and coach. Holmes had battled depression, battled the circumstances of her life that ended up pushing her to Langston, for years, and at times had taken it out on the way she behaved toward others.
"I tend to lash out at times," Holmes said. "Me and her have been working on different coping mechanisms so that I can be OK and not lash out at people or initially or intentionally hit someone. So we've been working on things that I can do to be a better person outside of basketball."
Holmes, 22, and Miller go on for 10 more minutes as they work through what had angered Holmes, how hard Holmes worked to get to where she is — notably the NAIA's leading scorer last year — and how her tendency to think about things that affect her emotionally can best serve her in the classroom. Last February, Holmes dropped 50 in a 106-77 drubbing of Our Lady of the Lake. Holmes is the kind of player and the kind of person who inspired Miller to return to coaching in the first place.
Holmes grew up in New Orleans. After Hurricane Katrina displaced her and her family just two days after she turned 13, she ended up in Chicago and attended Bogan High School where she made a name for herself as a 6'1 stretch forward. Playing against some of the best girls in the country, she grew into a physically formidable player. Then, her life unraveled once more.
Her family, which was split by Katrina, had nearly become whole again in Illinois when Holmes and her four siblings unexpectedly lost their father, Tommy Bray, to liver cancer in April 2008. Without him, the family decided to move back to New Orleans. But not Holmes. She stayed behind, believing her future was at Bogan.
Holmes became a top-100 recruit and graced the cover ESPN's RISE magazine in 2009. Elite college basketball programs — Michigan State and Missouri among them — lined up at the door, eager to sign her. She chose Xavier University and earned playing time as a freshman guard on a squad that went 29-3. Then, as so often happens when a mid-major program overachieves, XU coach Kevin McGuff was hired away by the University of Washington. Like many high school recruits, Holmes had signed with Xavier because of the coaches, and didn't much care for the one who took over the Musketeers program after McGuff left. She considered transferring right away, but was coaxed into staying at XU by the new staff.
Lynette Holmes, a former top recruit who transferred to Langston from Xavier before last season. (Photo by Brandon Clemoens)That's where Miller's heart is — with her players and the women, who she believes she can truly make better people and basketball players.
She stayed on for one more year, but there was an incident on a bus ride home from a game XU had just lost. Holmes says she apparently wasn't appropriately sad about losing the game. She remained upbeat, already looking ahead to the next game and the opportunity to improve, but she was also laughing and joking with her teammates. That didn't sit well with Amy Haugh. When Haugh confronted Holmes about her postgame attitude, the two argued in front of the team. That was a battle Holmes was never going to win.
"We did not see eye-to-eye," Holmes said. "It was always something. I had two months of these crazy workouts. Sometimes I'd do two hours bear-crawling on the treadmill or an hour on Stairmaster or sled pushes or sprints — everything. At the end of the day, I don't regret anything, but I do look back and think I could've handled things differently. I could've gone and talked to her about how I was feeling instead of letting this keep going and going."
Holmes was indefinitely suspended by Haugh in January 2012 "for not fulfilling all the responsibilities of a Xavier basketball player." She transferred to Arizona, but couldn't stand the thought of having to sit out a year due to the NCAA's transfer rules. So she sent out feelers to schools all over the country. Langston assistant Natasha Doh responded, and Holmes came to Oklahoma. By electing to play at a lower division, she didn't have to sit out a year. Now heading into her senior year, she's preparing to play for her fourth different head coach in as many years.] Miller wants to do is make sure Holmes gets her shot. She believes Holmes has the ability to play at the pro level, to make a living playing basketball just as Miller did.
That's where Miller's heart is — with her players and the women, like Holmes, who she believes she can truly make better people and basketball players. Right now, however, during the first few days of the school, isn't the time for coaching X's and O's. It's the time for motivating. It's time for reminding the women in her charge that they're going to be OK. "It's just a matter of getting them to believe, encouraging them, trying to minimize their doubts, and build that confidence in them, and that's every day," Miller said.
"She's like a mother figure," Holmes said, "and I only say this because, of course, when basketball comes she'll yell and scream about basketball, and when we make mistakes we have to run. Anything we get in trouble for, we're running for. But instead of us just running, or her just running the snot out of us, she actually takes time to talk with us and explain what exactly we're doing wrong. I know, for me, with my anger problems, she actually sat down and talked to me about actually going to talk to somebody about it. She wants everybody to be better whether that's with basketball or anger issues or you as a person."
But before Miller could find Langston, before she could help young women become their best selves, she had to find out who she was. That had nothing to do with being the world's greatest at anything and everything to do with losing her world's greatest — her mom.


Cheryl Miller at USC in 1986. (Getty Images)
Mike Garrett with Cheryl Miller and Lisa Leslie during a 2006 ceremony to retire their USC basketball jerseys. (Getty Images)
Cheryl Miller broadcasts a basketball game 1987, her second year with ABC Sports. (Getty Images)
Cheryl Miller coaches USC during a 1993 game. (Getty Images)
Cheryl Miller with Vince Carter and Dwight Howard before a 2010 broadcast. (Getty Images)
Mike Garrett attends a charity event earlier this year. (Getty Images)
Cheryl Miller coaches her team at Langston earlier this year. (Photo by Brandon Clemoens) 










